“I hope, or I could not live.” -H.G. Wells
I believe from the bottom of my heart that struggling writers need hope more than they need any other human emotion. What are we without hope? What do we have without hope? Hope is the one emotion that can help a writer keep driving forward in his/her writing life when it seems like everything in the world is stacked against him/her. Hope is the one thing that can keep a writer from giving up, even when she feels that no one believes in her or supports her writing dreams.
Hope is the one thing that keeps me going when I feel like no one understands or supports my dream of becoming a successful writer. Hope is what keeps me going when I feel like no one believes in me. There are days when I think to myself, “Nobody in my whole world thinks I’m going to make it as a writer,” but I keep going because I have hope for myself and my dream of being a successful author. Even if that is true and no one in my life thinks I can do this, I will do everything I can to keep pushing toward my dreams because I have hope.
People in my life have told me so many things over the years, and some them have felt like discouraging attacks, whether they were meant that way or not. However, I have ALWAYS come back to my writing because I love it, I’m passionate about it, and I cling to the hope that I am meant to have a successful writing life. I’ve been told that I’m inconsistent; that I have no follow through; that I may be a good writer, but there are thousands of better writers out there. I’ve been told that I’m the queen of procrastination and never finishing anything. I’ve been told that I don’t have the consistency or persistence to make it in the writing field. All those things may be true statements, but I have hope that my love for writing will help me overcome those problems and succeed in the field that I really love.
Have you noticed anything different lately? I’ve been making, at least, two posts a day, every day for the past month, not counting the Valentine’s Day trip to the beach house that didn’t have the internet. Does that seem inconsistent to you? Does it seem like I still lack follow through? I’m making changes in my life that will make me a better writer, and hopefully a better person too.
I’m making strides toward being more consistent, more persistent, and completing my projects instead of reworking large portions of one project over and over for years on end. I’m doing what I can to make myself a better writer. I’m putting in serious commitment and effort. Who can ask more of me than that?
“It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be.” -J.K. Rowling
This quote means SO MUCH to me because I’ve been such a huge fan of Harry Potter for such a long time! J.K. Rowling’s books shaped my childhood in so many ways, and I love that she sends the message that you can grow up to be whoever and whatever you want to be. You can choose goodness, happiness, and light in your life, and I think that message is genuinely important to struggling writers the world over. Not only is it important to struggling writers, but it’s also important to EVERYONE. You can CHOOSE your destiny.
As a writer, this means that I can select the messages I want to send out into the world through my blog and my works. In the past, I was prone to clinging to negativity. Anyone who reads my first book, A Collection of Reflections, could guess that. I have realized over the past few years that I can choose positivity, and I can choose happiness, and that I can elect to share that positivity and happiness with others.
I can opt to share the things that have lifted me up with others and hope to lift them up in turn. I can choose to extend a hand and lift my fellow writers–my fellow human beings–up instead of dragging them down.
When I allowed myself to wallow in misery, I wanted to pull others down with me, but I’ve learned to be better than that. I’ve learned to look for the benefit of everything (even the bad things), and hopefully, make the lives of others better along the way.
I learned a lot of that from reading the Harry Potter series. I hope that someday my writing touches lives in the same way that J.K. Rowling’s writing touched mine.
“I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom.” -Chuck Palahniuk
This quote isn’t just relevant to me as a struggling writer; it’s relevant to me as a struggling human being. I don’t just struggle with writer’s block. I struggle with who I am as a human being.
I struggle with the fact that I am an only child, and that I don’t really know that much about sharing my life and my internal world with other people. That occasionally makes being married harder than I expected. I’m not used to accommodating and sharing my thoughts and dreams with others, but I fully believe that learning how to share my life with someone else is making me a better person and a better writer.
I struggle with Type II Bipolar Disorder, but I don’t struggle nearly as much as I used to before my husband and I started dating. Having someone in your life who loves you in spite of the occasional period of depression or mania tends to put things on a more even keel. Still, I sometimes struggle with those feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that come along with depression. Unlike this quote, hopelessness does not equal freedom for me. Freedom comes for me when I have these feelings of hopelessness and my husband is there for me in spite of them. Freedom is my husband having faith in me and my writing even when I don’t have faith in myself.
I have found freedom in learning to share my life–even the ugly, messy, dark, hopeless parts–with someone who loves me and has faith in me. My husband, Lake, is the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
“And I know I can do this because I went to London on my own, and because I solved the mystery…and I was brave and I wrote a book and that means I can do anything.”
“What is the point of worrying oneself too much about what one could or could not have done to control the course one’s life took? Surely it is enough that the likes of you and I at least try to make our small contribution count for something true and worthy. And if some of us are prepared to sacrifice much in life in order to pursue such aspirations, surely that in itself, whatever the outcome, cause for pride and contentment.”
“If you look for perfection, you’ll never be content.”
I cannot tell you all just how relevant this is to my writing life right now. I’m hoping to get a post out tomorrow to update you on everything that’s been going on!
“The future could go this way, that way. The future’s futures have never looked so rocky. Don’t put money on it. Take my advice and stick to the present. It’s the real stuff, the only stuff, it’s all there is, the present, the panting present.”
“You never know what worse luck your bad luck has saved you from.”