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Doctor Pychyl On Procrastination | Quote of the Day 9/7/2017


Doctor Pychyl On Procrastination | Quote of the Day 9/7/2017


Rejection – Right in the "Feels"

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Excuse the casual jargon, but rejection definitely hurts. My intuition recently told me that I needed to read the “Be Resilient After Rejection” chapter of A Writer’s Guide to Persistence. My intuition was so right about me needing to read it, too. I used the authors.me platform to submit Frost to an agent a while back, and it got rejected recently. I’ve actually had several projects get shot down recently. There’s no way around it…rejection really sucks.

I loathe rejection. It’s hard as hell for me to deal with. Honestly, it was painful enough that I considered giving up writing altogether. If I’m not making any money off it, I’m just being a burden to my husband. He doesn’t feel that way about it, but I do. It’s a really hard blow to my self-confidence. I went through all the stages of rejection that Jordan Rosenfeld talks about in the “Be Resilient After Rejection” chapter.

I went through the hope-crushing sting. I definitely went though a soul-crushing wave of shame and the following heavy cloud of discouragement. (“I’m never going to be good enough to be published; I should just quit while I’m ahead.”) I am just now attempting to drag myself out of the inaction phase because I dread falling into the inertia phase. I may not be good enough to be published yet, but I will be, someday. I will keep trying.


Rejection – Right in the “Feels”

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Excuse the casual jargon, but rejection definitely hurts. My intuition recently told me that I needed to read the “Be Resilient After Rejection” chapter of A Writer’s Guide to Persistence. My intuition was so right about me needing to read it, too. I used the authors.me platform to submit Frost to an agent a while back, and it got rejected recently. I’ve actually had several projects get shot down recently. There’s no way around it…rejection really sucks.

I loathe rejection. It’s hard as hell for me to deal with. Honestly, it was painful enough that I considered giving up writing altogether. If I’m not making any money off it, I’m just being a burden to my husband. He doesn’t feel that way about it, but I do. It’s a really hard blow to my self-confidence. I went through all the stages of rejection that Jordan Rosenfeld talks about in the “Be Resilient After Rejection” chapter.

I went through the hope-crushing sting. I definitely went though a soul-crushing wave of shame and the following heavy cloud of discouragement. (“I’m never going to be good enough to be published; I should just quit while I’m ahead.”) I am just now attempting to drag myself out of the inaction phase because I dread falling into the inertia phase. I may not be good enough to be published yet, but I will be, someday. I will keep trying.


Struggling

I really wanted to post something insightful and relevant today, but I’m having such a hard time focusing right now that it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen. Why am I struggling so hard to focus and find something good to share here? Is it the general and hormonal discomforts of the third trimester? Is it my current project that I can’t tell you about because I’m going to publish it under a pen name? Is it sheer exhaustion?

I honestly don’t know what my problem is right now. Sigh. Maybe I’ll just go do some work on the project that hath no name.


Is Resistance Futile?

I tend to obsess about things pretty regularly. I fixate, and when I do I fixate HARD. Right now, I’m trying to resist the urge to check my sales stats for Frost. Should I be resisting? Probably so. If I don’t resist the compulsion to constantly check for updates, I’m probably going to end up driving myself insane.

How could I drive myself insane with that information? There’s the list, as it currently stands.

  • I’m not doing an official book launch right now, so I can’t expect the sales to be spectacular in the first place.
  • I’m not doing any official marketing at the moment, which also won’t help my sales.
  • Professional envy. I’m not going to lie, I’ve got it bad, but it’s something I’m working on because I know that comparison breeds misery. Better to work on staying in my own lane and keeping positive.
  • I’m already too impatient, and checking sales compulsively only makes me more impatient.

I bet you’re wondering why I’m not doing a launch or marketing the novel when I’ve just released it. Honestly, I just don’t have the time or the energy for it right this minute because I feel there are certain personal matters that are a much more pressing need at this point. My son is due to arrive in a little less than four months, and I have to pick up the slack I left in my life when I dropped everything to focus on finishing and releasing my first novel.

I guess I’m just in a really weird, restless place in my professional writing life right now. I don’t really know what to do about it. Any advice you have is welcome.


Ray Bradbury on Life – Quote of the Day – 8/30/2016

Quote of the Day Box

Well, I’m trying a new way of doing the quote of the day posts to see if it works, guys. If you want just the quote, you can look at the image at the top of the post and go no further. If you want my personal thoughts on the quote as it relates to me pursuing my calling of writing, then you can read what I have to say, too.

I’ve tried the Quote of the Day a lot of different ways, as you can see by scrolling through this blog. I’ve also been inconsistent, and I know that needs to end. I’ve just been struggling with my novel and trying to find a job because I’ve been unemployed since January. Not bringing money into my household is stressing me out badly because I feel like dead weight, even though I’ve been working my butt off on fixing Frost: An Otherworld Tale.

How do I continue to heed my calling if I’m basically a dead weight in my marriage/personal life? I find myself lost and praying a lot lately. Praying for a job. Praying for clarity. Praying for guidance. Praying for help with finishing my novel and getting it published. I’ve been praying on a pretty constant basis. The thing is, I don’t really know if I’ve been paying attention and listening for a response.

Besides, even if I get some sort of spiritual response, how will I know? I guess I’m just going to keep trying things to see if they work, as Ray Bradbury would say.


Quote of the Day -4/4/16 – Alan Alda On Creative Life

“Have the nerve to go into unexplored territory. Be brave enough to live life creatively.” -Alan Alda

I needed this quote today. As you can probably tell by my inconsistency in posting lately, I’ve been wavering on the value of my blog, and whether or not it’s worth it for me to continue to pursue this when I have no real measurable income to speak of right now.

My logical mind is screaming at me to hurry up and finish my medical transcription and editing courses so I can make money and be an active contributor to my marriage. My logical mind likes to make me feel like this blog is a waste of time.

My heart and soul disagree. All I’ve ever wanted to be is a successful writer, and that desire is never going to go away. I still need to finish my medical transcription courses, yes, but I also feel that I must continue to “Be brave enough to live life creatively,” as Alan Alda so eloquently put it.

So, in the interest of both continuing to heed my calling and bringing in an income to contribute to my marriage, what am I going to do?

  1. I’m going to pray for God’s guidance.
  2. I’m going to get back on my schedule.
  3. I’m going to do my writing very first thing in the morning.
  4. After I’ve done my writing for the day, I’m going to work on my MTE school.
  5. I’m going to spend at least one hour a day on housework.
  6. I’m going to pray some more.
  7. I’m going to get back to using the 5,000 Words Per Hour method created by Chris Fox.
  8. I’m going to finish Frost as soon as I get the help I need from my beta readers.

If you are interested in beta reading for me, please contact me.


Quote of the Day – 2/21/16

“Sing praise to the LORD, you holy ones of His. Give thanks to His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment. His favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may stay for the night, but joy comes in the morning. As for me, I said in my prosperity, ‘I shall never be moved.'” -Psalm 30:4-6 (www.dailybible.co)

You may have noticed that this is the first time my “Quote of the Day” has been a quotation from the Bible. In the past, I have been reluctant to intermingle my career as a writer with my personal faith. I feared that doing so might push some of my potential readers away. I have also had a lifelong struggle with my faith, which I will explain some other time. In any case, I am a Christian, and my faith is a surprisingly integral part of who I am. So, from now on, my “Quote of the Day” each Sunday will be a quote from the Bible, courtesy of the Daily Bible Inspirations app.

I do not claim to have any sort of divine insight regarding this passage, but I can tell you what it means to me, personally, as a writer and Christian. The message I get from this Biblical quote, in regards to my writing practice, is that I should not be easily discouraged. If I keep the faith and remain dedicated to my writing practice, God will bless me with the resolve and imagination I need to continue pursuing my calling as a writer.

I truly believe that if I prayerfully approach my calling as a writer, that God will lead me in the right direction. I believe that God will lead me and my work on the correct path, and open the right doors for me.

In the past, I have struggled with an obsession with what I perceive as fair, and that has often clashed with my faith. I have been fixated on fairness for as long as I can remember. My earliest memories involve me, fraught with indignant outrage over how unfair things often were, socially, at school. Both my grandmothers, women of incredible and unshakeable faith, told me the same thing over and over. “Life isn’t fair, but God is.” Whenever they told me that, it only succeeded in infuriating me even more because I didn’t have the capacity to understand what it meant.

It’s taken me almost 27 years to come to grips with both my faith and my desire to be treated fairly. It has taken me my entire life up until this point–years of lost, frustrated heartache–to finally understand what they meant. It has taken me almost 27 years to finally accept the fact that God knows better than I do what is best for my life. It has taken my whole life for me to finally understand that God’s plan and my plans may not always be one and the same. It has taken me the entirety of my life to understand that God knows better than I do what is best for me, and what path I need to follow to fulfill my life’s purpose.

I believe that’s what has made it so difficult for me to complete Frost in a timely manner. I didn’t want Frost to be Christian fiction because I was afraid it would limit me by excluding non-Christian readers. Frost began as an exploration of my personal struggles with the idea that “Life isn’t fair, but God is,” and that is the way I intend to finish it. If that means that Frost ends up being Christian fiction, then I’m going to stand by it. I feel called to share that struggle. I feel compelled to tell Frost the way it initially struck me.

I have faith that I am now telling the story as God intended me to tell it, and I sincerely hope that this story will still be an irresistibly fantastic adventure when I’m through telling it the way it was supposed to be told.

 


A Little Lost

So…my last living grandparent passed away on Thursday, April 9, 2015, and I feel absolutely lost. It was very difficult for me to see such a strong woman go downhill so quickly. My Granny Clemmons was 92 years old, and she was one of the strongest women I’ve ever known in my life. I’ve been trying so hard to work on my writing, and I’m just too emotionally exhausted to function right now. All my creativity just seems to be gone. It’s like her death turned my soul into a sieve and my creativity seeped out. Everything is tired: mind, heart, body, and soul. It’s like my mind is in a stall pattern due to grief or something.

The odd thing about it is that I was more prepared for this death than I have been for any other in my life, but it still hurts. I’m glad that my Granny isn’t suffering anymore, but there’s a very big hole in my life now. I just feel lost. There’s no other way to say it. It’s like everything that makes me who I am as a writer is out to lunch. I really hope it decides to come back soon because I have several books to finish.


Daily Writing Is Happening!

Even though I haven’t been posting on here every day (like I should), I have been writing for at least five minutes a day. I’m doing a lot of roughing things out with a pen and notebook. Things just seem to be flowing better with ink and paper, as of late. Even with everything that’s going on in my personal life (both fantastic and bad), I’m managing to get things done in my writing life.

I’m working hard to merge Frost back on the track I laid out for it in my original outline. I set my outline aside for a little while and wandered a little farther away from it than I intended. There are things I like about the old outline and things I like about where the creative flow took me. Now I’m just working on making a cohesive marriage of the two, and trying to see how that’s going to change the remaining 31 scenes I had originally planned for the book. I plan on finishing the free version on JukePop by the end of the summer so I can get it edited and release some time this winter.

After I get the next scene written for Frost, I’m going to work on the next chapter of The Alexandria Chronicles, then Murphy’s Law of the Jungle. Frost is still my number one priority, though. Once the edited and expanded version of Frost has been released, I intend to focus primarily on finishing Murphy’s Law of the Jungle. I’d like to have that story wrapped up by the end of next summer. If all goes well with Frost, I am likely to try to publish an edited and expanded edition of Murphy’s Law of the Jungle through JukePop.

What about that awesome space opera I’m working on called The Alexandria Chronicles, you ask? I will continue adding chapters to it when I’m taking breaks from my primary projects!

As for personal things going on in my life, it’s now a mixed bag. My grandmother is going on 93 and her health is deteriorating swiftly. She is the only living grandparent I have left. I know she’s had a lot of good years and is leaving us with an incredible legacy, but it’s still a very painful thing to deal with. On the bright side, however, my fiancé got to meet her and she congratulated us on our impending nuptials. This brings me back to the original reason I started this post: daily posts are not my strong suit, and I can guarantee you that my updates will be scattered and/or infrequent between now and the wedding.

I’m hoping that I’ll be able to really and truly settle into the habit of posting on here daily some time in August or September. I feel that, as a writer, I need the responsibility and  accountability that posting on a daily basis brings. In the past, my creativity has been a bit spastic and dictated by my rather fickle muse. I’m glad to state that the muse and I recently had a come to Jesus meeting, and she’s being much more cooperative now that I’m only demanding 5 minutes a day from her, as opposed to me trying to write a novel in 3 days during a manic fit riddled with very little sleep and too much coffee.


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