Category Archives: I’ve Been Thinking Again

As Usual, It’s Been a While…

As you guys know, I’m pretty much the most inconsistent blogger ever. I even annoy myself with my own inconsistency. Instead of constantly pimping Frost and Frost-related products to you on a constant basis, I decided to give the self-promotion a rest. I hate doing it, and other people hate reading posts that are purely self-promotion.

So, instead of wasting everybody’s time in that way, I decided to focus on editing/rewriting Frost and getting it ready for release. I’m not going to beg anybody to buy it. I’m not even going to post the preorder link in this blog post. I’m just taking these next few days to finish getting my manuscript ready because it’s time for me to let this novel go and find a new project.

In all likelihood, after Frost releases, I’m going to take a step back from writing for a while. Why would I take a step back from something I’ve been so passionate about for so many years? As you know, I have a baby boy on the way. I need to get my house in order so we’re ready to take care of him in the best possible way when he gets here. I also need to turn my single-minded focus toward finishing MTE school.

While I’m totally nerve-wracked about Frost releasing on January 31, I’m also excited by the possibilities of finally letting go of this story and making improvements in other areas of my life.

Wish me luck!


As Usual, It's Been a While…

As you guys know, I’m pretty much the most inconsistent blogger ever. I even annoy myself with my own inconsistency. Instead of constantly pimping Frost and Frost-related products to you on a constant basis, I decided to give the self-promotion a rest. I hate doing it, and other people hate reading posts that are purely self-promotion.

So, instead of wasting everybody’s time in that way, I decided to focus on editing/rewriting Frost and getting it ready for release. I’m not going to beg anybody to buy it. I’m not even going to post the preorder link in this blog post. I’m just taking these next few days to finish getting my manuscript ready because it’s time for me to let this novel go and find a new project.

In all likelihood, after Frost releases, I’m going to take a step back from writing for a while. Why would I take a step back from something I’ve been so passionate about for so many years? As you know, I have a baby boy on the way. I need to get my house in order so we’re ready to take care of him in the best possible way when he gets here. I also need to turn my single-minded focus toward finishing MTE school.

While I’m totally nerve-wracked about Frost releasing on January 31, I’m also excited by the possibilities of finally letting go of this story and making improvements in other areas of my life.

Wish me luck!


Long Time, No See

So, in my avid focus on trying to make Frost’s initial Inkshares campaign a success, I dropped the ball literally everywhere else in my life, including my blog. The initial campaign failed, and I feel like an idiot for letting you guys down. I just wanted so badly to have publication and good distribution. Inkshares has SO MUCH to offer. Ugh. I realize this is a really informal post, but I’ve decided that I’m just going to be the real me on this blog, without trying to polish everything up so much. Anyway, I’ll be getting back to my Quote of the Day posts and whatnot. See you guys around!


Quote of the Day – 2/11/2016

“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” -Philip K. Dick

I have felt, for quite some time now, that something is missing from these “Quote of the Day” posts that I do. While the quotes are all lovely in their own right, just tossing quotes out into the abyss of the internet doesn’t seem like enough. I’ve known that for a while. As a writer who is struggling to make a career out of what she loves, I feel like I should share how I feel that these quotes apply to me and my situation.

Perhaps you’re in the same situation, and it will apply to you in the same way, or perhaps it will apply differently. Perhaps you’re in an entirely different situation from mine, but maybe the quote will touch you and be meaningful for you in spite of our differences.

So, how does today’s quote apply to me as a struggling writer?

Sometimes I struggle with reality. It’s not my favorite thing in the world because reality is often a harsh, painful, uncertain, and terrifying mode of existence. Growing up as an only child, reality was a lonely place for me most of the time. I think that’s one of the reasons that my imagination is so highly developed. Being the only child in a household leaves plenty of room for the imagination to spawn more companions and fantastic adventures than I could have ever hoped to get down on paper.

You can only play hide and seek with reality for so long, though. I imagine Reality having Liam Neeson’s voice and always repeating that line of his from Taken. “I will find you, and I will kill you.” I guess that speaks volumes about my feelings toward reality all by itself. I’m not saying that reality is inherently evil–sometimes reality is fantastic–but I’m saying that I think God gave us imagination because he knew that reality would break us all if we didn’t have the solace of imagination to turn to when reality gets too painful.

Reality never goes away, that much is true, but Imagination allows us to take a step back from Reality until we can bear its burdens and move forward.


The Alexandria Chronicles – 1st Look

I just realized that I forgot to click publish on yesterday’s daily writing post, so here it is.

Swaths of long, burnished gold hair cascaded onto a subtly heated polished marble floor, looking pallid as a royal burial shroud in the milky, violet-tinted light of Faria’s two moons, Lyncis and Vhutti. Milla Ardas winced at the sight, but did not stop shearing her hair. She jumped and nicked her left ear when the android that had been her lady’s maid twitched and sparks shot out from where Milla had shoved a stolen screwdriver up through the back of Neomi’s neck into her memory unit. In the moonlight, it looked like a murder; the dark hydraulic fluid seeping out of the tear in Neomi’s synthetic flesh looked like blood flowing out of a real wound. The sight made Milla a bit queasy, but she ignored the sick feeling in her stomach because more important things were at hand. The call to destroy her lifelong companion had not been an easy one for the Princess to make, but her current circumstances dictated that drastic measures be taken.

I’ll be posting another writing-related piece today just to remain on schedule/track. Hope you guys like this one!


Netflix

A few weeks ago, my best friend introduced me to Netflix. I absolutely LOVE it. Unfortunately, on the internet that we have where I live, I can only watch it between 2:00 AM and 8:00 AM. This puts a serious cramp in my style, because I have so much I want to watch! Some time in the future, I’m hoping to find a job that will support a move to somewhere with better internet. When I do, I’ll finally be able to catch up on Hemlock Grove, which I’ve fallen in love with.


Dropped the Ball

Since I am vacationing in Belize, I haven’t been on the internet much, and I feel that I’ve dropped the ball as a blogger. I’ve dropped the ball in other arenas of my life lately, too. I’m not sure why. I think I just hit a point of pure exhaustion a month or two ago and let everything fall by the wayside. It’s like I was juggling china, and kept adding piece after piece until I was too tired to care anymore and everything came crashing to the ground with a massive, embarrassing cacophony. I am, however, picking myself back up after a lovely vacation, and in the process of putting things back together.

I will be adding chapters to both my serials by week’s end. I have TONS to tell y’all about my vacation! There are more posts to come today, dear readers.

I also want you to know that I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to read this post. Every view is special to me.

Love,

Chels


Humans, Lies, and Truth

I’ve been up all night thinking. This rarely leads me to any kind of profundity, or any sort of good place whatsoever, but I’ve got something, and I feel it’s necessary to get it off my chest. If I don’t, my head will be buzzing for days, and my sleep may be further impaired.

Why do we lie to each other? Why do we carefully construct dozens of different versions of ourselves, and project them each in turn depending on who we’re with? Are we so profoundly broken that we cannot stand for the world to see who we really are, or is it something else?

Are we so lame that we cannot walk without these illusions to hold us up? Are we so crippled by constructs and our own egos, so lowly, that we feel GUILT and FEAR when the façade slips and the REAL us shines through?

The worst of this is when you project some profound lie in the attempt to keep a connection with someone who, in all likelihood, is just FINE with the lies, and totally OKAY with being without you, even the LIE of you. Is it worth preserving this connection, and the egos attached on both ends, if a drop of truth will SHATTER everything?

I don’t think that truth was ever meant to be a destructive force, but we’ve made it so with our lies, illusions, and constructs.

I, for one, am TIRED of being such a LIAR. I am exhausted, lost, afraid, and I don’t know what to do or who to reach for. I don’t know who I’ll have left to turn to, should I unleash the truth.

I am a LIAR, and I am AFRAID of being honest.

How did it come to this?


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